矛盾
说过放下， 到了最后， 依然放不下。
结果， 苦了自己。
将近一年的时间， 将近一年的宁静，就这样， 一瞬间地被打破。
心，揪着。
一声不响，无声无息， 来去匆匆。
原本是我最期待的一件事，却令我最失望和忧伤。
笨啊~
过了三个星期，我才知道你的离去。
太傻了。。。
我根本就不应该对你有任何的期望。连跟你见一面的期望也不能有。
你走吧。
Sunday 18 December 2011
Friday 6 May 2011
Cooling Day 6th May 2011
I feel like going on a journey on my own; just go anywhere to explore.
No pressure.
I'm gonna get back on my feet again.
Not going to be tied down by anything.
I have not been walking around on my own for quite some time already.
It's time.
No pressure.
I'm gonna get back on my feet again.
Not going to be tied down by anything.
I have not been walking around on my own for quite some time already.
It's time.
Tuesday 26 April 2011
Exam
Finally done with my last module that is taught by Prof Tan.
Feeling is a vast difference from that of last year.
Feel very satisfied with my work and effort.
I know it was going to be a good day for me=)
Just so different.
Bathed, not nervous, new clothe.
Well, it's been 6 days since we last sms.
I seriously don't know what's really going through his mind.
Actually I don't know what I want too.
Feeling is not strong at all. Fading...
I guess the strong feeling I had initially was suppressed so successfully that it is supercooled.
Forget it?
I need to know what's going on. I can't let this end without a proper ending.
Feeling is a vast difference from that of last year.
Feel very satisfied with my work and effort.
I know it was going to be a good day for me=)
Just so different.
Bathed, not nervous, new clothe.
Well, it's been 6 days since we last sms.
I seriously don't know what's really going through his mind.
Actually I don't know what I want too.
Feeling is not strong at all. Fading...
I guess the strong feeling I had initially was suppressed so successfully that it is supercooled.
Forget it?
I need to know what's going on. I can't let this end without a proper ending.
Thursday 17 March 2011
Buds
I'm a little confused; I don't know how and whether I should proceed.
Reality is you have many choices and open to temptation, and I have no idea of whether you have the slightest interest in me.
I am afraid to put all my feelings into a new relationship.
Hesitant.
But i really wish that you are the right one and the one whom i can settle down with.
Is it infatuation ? I hope not.
On the other hand, I seriously want to draw a boundary between Hua and I. I will never like him and be with him. I don't wish to give him any false hope that he has a possibility getting me. That is not true and impossible.
He is not the least my cup of tea. It's just totally wrong. No way. I have to be honest.
Reality is you have many choices and open to temptation, and I have no idea of whether you have the slightest interest in me.
I am afraid to put all my feelings into a new relationship.
Hesitant.
But i really wish that you are the right one and the one whom i can settle down with.
Is it infatuation ? I hope not.
On the other hand, I seriously want to draw a boundary between Hua and I. I will never like him and be with him. I don't wish to give him any false hope that he has a possibility getting me. That is not true and impossible.
He is not the least my cup of tea. It's just totally wrong. No way. I have to be honest.
Saturday 1 January 2011
The Outcome
Finally, after all these years of waiting, I got your answer.
I know it's over. I'm not going to wait for the impossible to happen anymore. Enough is enough.
Now that i know you are seeing someone else, I know it's time to stop yearning I can have any future with you.
Hmmm.
Disappointment is inevitable.
But at least I'm not heart-broken.
It sucks.
Damn sucks.
Goodbye.
Goodbye to you.
I don't wish to see you again until I have gotten over this, until you see me holding another person's hand again.
Hmmm.
Bye.
I know it's over. I'm not going to wait for the impossible to happen anymore. Enough is enough.
Now that i know you are seeing someone else, I know it's time to stop yearning I can have any future with you.
Hmmm.
Disappointment is inevitable.
But at least I'm not heart-broken.
It sucks.
Damn sucks.
Goodbye.
Goodbye to you.
I don't wish to see you again until I have gotten over this, until you see me holding another person's hand again.
Hmmm.
Bye.
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