Exam

Finally done with my last module that is taught by Prof Tan.
Feeling is a vast difference from that of last year.
Feel very satisfied with my work and effort.
I know it was going to be a good day for me=)
Just so different.
Bathed, not nervous, new clothe.

Well, it's been 6 days since we last sms.
I seriously don't know what's really going through his mind.
Actually I don't know what I want too.
Feeling is not strong at all. Fading...
I guess the strong feeling I had initially was suppressed so successfully that it is supercooled.
Forget it?
I need to know what's going on. I can't let this end without a proper ending.

Buds

I'm a little confused; I don't know how and whether I should proceed.
Reality is you have many choices and open to temptation, and I have no idea of whether you have the slightest interest in me.
I am afraid to put all my feelings into a new relationship.
Hesitant.
But i really wish that you are the right one and the one whom i can settle down with.
Is it infatuation ? I hope not.

On the other hand, I seriously want to draw a boundary between Hua and I. I will never like him and be with him. I don't wish to give him any false hope that he has a possibility getting me. That is not true and impossible.
He is not the least my cup of tea. It's just totally wrong. No way. I have to be honest.

The Outcome

Finally, after all these years of waiting, I got your answer. 
I know it's over. I'm not going to wait for the impossible to happen anymore. Enough is enough. 
Now that i know you are seeing someone else, I know it's time to stop yearning I can have any future with you.
Hmmm.
Disappointment is inevitable.
But at least I'm not heart-broken.
It sucks.
Damn sucks.
Goodbye.
Goodbye to you.
I don't wish to see you again until I have gotten over this, until you see me holding another person's hand again.
Hmmm.
Bye.