A Kind Soul!!!

I reached out to my phone in my pocket. Empty.
I lost my phone!
It must have dropped on the bus when I alighted from the bus.
I quickly called my phone using the public phone.
I was waiting anxiously for the ringing. It rang.
And the next moment, I was hoping that the person holding my phone would pick up my call.
Three seconds later, it was picked up. Yes!
A male voice was heard.
He asked me if I was the owner who lost the phone and i said yes. He asked me where I am and he told me to meet him at his block nearby.
I was so so thankful and ecstatic when I heard that!
Despite being very desperate and anxious to retrieve my phone, I walked to the supermarket to get a box of chocolate.
After that, I quickly rush to the block but found myself lost. Luckily, i found the block.
I saw him. I recognised him.
He kindly handed the phone to me and told me that he actually asked who lost the phone when some passengers and I were alighting the bus.
Oh my god~!! He is so kind~~~!!! I am really really grateful to him.
I was surprised to see him.
He was sitting diagonally in front of me on the bus and I noticed him all the while because of his tattoo and the way he talked to his friend beside him. I secretly thought he was a bad ah beng. But I was proven wrong! Oh my~! I am so regretful that I had stereotyped him.
I really really feel so lucky that he picked up my phone and returned to me shortly. He could have sold it. The phone is new and nicely designed.
Before I left, I took out the chocolate I had bought and gave it to him as a small gesture of appreciation.
Yet, I know the kind deed he did worth more than anything.

A Happy Birthday

It's a Monday.

The first good thing is being able to sleep in quarter past twelve and wake up at 9 in a weekday morning.

To start it off, I put on fitness gear and headed to the gym for a long workout. The gym was empty but shortly came a lady sharing with me. Working out in a morning with few people competing for the gym equipment is a luxury for me after I have started working. It is also becoming rare for me to be able to see the people cleaning the gym and the premises around it. When I greeted them a good morning, I felt I had gone back in time when I was only busy with schoolwork.

After spending an hour in gym, I was out to kopitiam. As I strolled on the street, I felt a sense of happiness. Walking on the street to get my breakfast at 10 plus ? That's fantastic! I ordered a set breakfast of Teh with French toast. As I took a sip of the hot teh, it just tasted wonderful~ The moment was perfect and I was really satisfied! In addition, the first bite of the French toast just make me with so blissful~ Who says good food need to be expensive? A simple meal like teh and French toast is more than enough. It's a total enjoyment for me.

The next stop is Changi Airport. I hopped on a bus that took almost an hour to arrive at Terminal 3. However, along the way, I realised even though this was not the first time I took the bus to the airport the scenery on the road seems unfamiliar to me. This time, it appeared that I was more observant of the surrounding and enjoyed the scenery even more. I walked up to Itacho Sushi. It was almost empty as there were only two customers. I was given a table near to the window. The atmosphere was serene. I ordered several sushi and slowly enjoyed every mouth of it. When I had decided to dine in Itacho, I was prepared to pay a hefty price of above $40. When the bill came, it was only $27. I was pretty surprised.

After a satisfied lunch, I quickly took a train to Harbour Front to meet him. He had actually waited for me for two hours. Oh my. Why did he just keep mum? I felt bad that while I was enjoying the lunch, he had to wait for me silently. He very patiently walked around the mall and shopped with me. His gifts for me were a notebook with his drawing on the front page and a small sling bag from Charles. =) In addition, he treated me Thai dinner and Haagen Daz ice cream cake and ice cream waffle which was very satisfying. Before my day came to an end, he made a photo collage for me. Thank you!

I miss my Monday. For the first time, I felt dreadful going to work. But I know, I had a wonderful birthday and fully enjoyed my birthday.

海市蜃楼

Another blow.
First was his ex.
Now is his own problem.
He is just a jerk.
If you are not ready, don't ever commit yourself.
You are just a big letdown to me. Utterly.
Well, at least this happened shortly after being together.
Seriously, I should really concentrate on my career and friends. I have a group of loving friends.
Just treat this incident as a fun activity that just ends abruptly.
I shall seek for more thrills and fun till the right one really appears.
Honestly, I'm not totally ready as well. But this doesn't pose a problem for me.
Remember, never trust a man unless its proven he is trustworthy over a substantial period of time.
It sucks.
Bastard.
I'm not going to self blame cos I'm totally clean, and got nothing to do with his business.
That's it.
I will be better.
I believe the right one is there for me not faraway. All these obstacles are just preparing me to be ready for the right one. I will be stronger emotionally. I swear I will not be nasty or turn crazy or lash out at those who have hurt me. It's hard but can be done. It's to being a cultured person. And to be kind to myself and others. I believe kind deed will be rewarded.

Perseverence

Just hold on for a while more.
Hold your power.
Hang on.
Keep calm and cool.
Be upbeat and positive.
That's the way.
Treat it as a form of training.
Stay focused on the work at hand.
Do not. Never get distracted. Never be wavered.
You are doing well so far. Keep it up!
I have confidence in you.
You can make it.
Things will be over soon.
Bear in mind.
Your mind must be strong.
Do not be blinded by emotions and words.
Do not be involved in relationship.
No relationship can last.
It's not the time now.
You must only see the facts.
You must be rational at all times.
You have to be strong.
You must have good health, mental health and physical health.
Always be in the tip-toe condition till you reach the goals.
Even after that, you must never fall, never falter.
Do not be afraid of being relied on by others.
You are an asset. Make yourself irreplaceable and indispensable.
Do people a favour, and do yourself a good deed.

心底的痛/不告而别

矛盾
说过放下， 到了最后， 依然放不下。
结果， 苦了自己。
将近一年的时间， 将近一年的宁静，就这样， 一瞬间地被打破。
心，揪着。
一声不响，无声无息， 来去匆匆。
原本是我最期待的一件事，却令我最失望和忧伤。
笨啊~
过了三个星期，我才知道你的离去。
太傻了。。。
我根本就不应该对你有任何的期望。连跟你见一面的期望也不能有。
你走吧。

Cooling Day 6th May 2011

I feel like going on a journey on my own; just go anywhere to explore.
No pressure.
I'm gonna get back on my feet again.
Not going to be tied down by anything.

I have not been walking around on my own for quite some time already.
It's time.

Exam

Finally done with my last module that is taught by Prof Tan.
Feeling is a vast difference from that of last year.
Feel very satisfied with my work and effort.
I know it was going to be a good day for me=)
Just so different.
Bathed, not nervous, new clothe.

Well, it's been 6 days since we last sms.
I seriously don't know what's really going through his mind.
Actually I don't know what I want too.
Feeling is not strong at all. Fading...
I guess the strong feeling I had initially was suppressed so successfully that it is supercooled.
Forget it?
I need to know what's going on. I can't let this end without a proper ending.